Love-is-vengeance

       How could you be so fake to lead me on with suicide kisses and interlocked hands as we drown in this lake as friends. You've taken lives and now your have taken another with time to spare behind you curtain of stares and glares that become looks of murder. Now it all seem's so real... that i was ment to be subdued in to the lake and now i feel at place among the others you have blamed. But it was you who brought the heavy load of pain that you fasten tightly around my ankles. Does this murder by moonlight bring you pleasure or accoplishment?.....how does it make you feel when your hiding your sins in the deep where i now rest? But now

In a room located in the center of my mind i spend hour's on end thinking about you and what you hid from me. You said you pushed  him away but i think it's hard to push something away when you are so close that you are running your fingers through his soul and locking lips......this is to become the fall of a decade for me. Was it a sin? Should i forgive?  I know your knees buckled and fell limp as your lips of betray brushed his. So this is my safe note writen on a black day when the stars fell out of the sky. So all those time's you said you were with family you were embracing anothers lips and heart. What made you crumble for him so easy

I should have trusted her with all my heart but now my life feels like its on restart and im going to have to climb this mountain of guilt to forgive myself.....Where did i go wrong,why do i act this way is it because im so scared of losing her that i let emotions get the best of me? or am i just a failure with no intenions. I love her so dear like my favorite organ that beats along with hers and i can tell they have a connection because they both hurt when we have to run through the pain to meet eachother in the middle of a storm............

she went through heaven and hell to find me and still i stayed the same. Eyes shut(blinded by jelousy)my intensions were never to not trust her. I guess in the end of this short story i didnt trust myself enuff to know the truth that she loves me and cares so deeply that she'd give me her last breath to me so i could live a little longer so she can pass in my arms. I knew i was the wrong one when i struck that match that ignited a wild fire in both of are hearts that are still conected to this very day. I know what i have to say will shock her and the world is that i trust her with every cell i carry in this body that has been through so much

Lets put this play on and see who gets cut first,and with the first act we will say are "i love you's" and skip to the part where we both end up alone. scene missing, cut from the film lets see the premier hand in hand on a night ment for two. Where did we go wrong i guess life was hard and we took the short route the ended up hurting us both in ways i can't explain. So lets take the lines and write a new storyline that ends up with us in eachothers arms on a cold November night. With my lines of love i dedicate to you my heart in the form of a poem............

Tonight seem's so calm and in this deslit room i write this song. In this song i write with rock hard words that i use to crush everything in site. But after the rubble has been cleared along with the dust there you stand with no fear and a heart full of trust. Your my most priceless diamond stone and with out you im a worthless nothin all alone... You make it rain everyday to wash my pain away. What would i do without you? What could i do?..... Remain nameless and lost my heart i did toss. Did you catch it and put it next to your's? I thank you for opening the doors to the outside world where you waited for me I can see we

Love is this year's summer breeze. it blow's through the tree's like a symphony for you and me. Laying on the grass "oh how the time did pass" when i was caught up in your eye's they matched the beautiful sky. As the fire danced it's orange dance i knew this was my chance to show you that i love you in the form of a kiss (Silk lip's) So unforgetable and yet so loveable Tonight is a moment in love into my life you did shove and how a part of me you shall stay so i can love you till the end of day's. This is a night kept as a memory (Never to be) Forgotten.........

They think i have done wrong with each and every one of my song's. I write to please, I write to sway. (what can i say) They have their way with word's the words that take flight like birds and take flight to find someone to hurt. This is where i insert myself this is the time and place where i prove them wrong. this wont take long. I love you so just wanted you to know that i could never scar you and that i would take every fall for you. For forever and to infinity this is a certainty that i'll take some hits and some chip's that were put into the wall of your heart from the start i knew i could ment your heart. With

Wide eyes shot butterflies, my organs contained them in a cage. I sat, studied, I'd explain-                          "I heard a drop of "self control" and "confidence in God."                           Watched it shatter, shake, disintergrate- We'd stop, we'd kiss, we'd hold, and you'd say-                                   "Breathe ,Girlie, breathe. Breathe babe please pray for me. Cause I'm hands felt on spines trembling nerves as I push the rewind to hear a delayed message of regret but I'll keep- pressing on-to new people, new mattress and rum.          Turning down second dates like telemarketers calling me at dawn. Made

                    You've got miles to go until you get to me.                     You've got miles to go until you  sink this low .                                  "I want you to hit rock bottom"                           My pearly whites cracked on impact. A little girl tugged on my dress and said "that boy doesnt love you"          I squinted up at the sky and said on a sigh "I believe you're right." To my surprise she had tears painting her face.              "Don't give up. You dont care about something until you've lost it." When my eyes refocused she was gone.                            I sat down on a bench and on my left s

i guess this is what you call.. "the breaking point."            all you do is sit and wonder what could have been.    or what should have been. my lungs are trying so hard not to collapse.           breath.       stop screaming. words try to escape from my mouth.          but all you can hear are faint whispers                      of the many wishes made on stars. just for the record my outlook on today is:  slighly lower then your expectations.    im telling you now before you make your mistakes..         -hospital beds arent what they seem. so sit down for a heart to heart               ...sit down and spill everyth

Paper cuts thin out to those patheic excuse for a "Winning you back" lectures on those countless papers.                                                      "Blahblahblah I want sympathy."                                                    Was the loudest message received. Nothings changed, I feel the same. Captain.Captain. "Calculations must have gone wrong somewhere..." Starts with a y--. Sighs dramatically. I'm sure you'll figure it out eventually.                                                          This is Handguns vs Hands Down                                                                                            

I was wishing on stars because nobody told me it was daylight.                  Your voice made my eyes fly open.                  "You're as pale as those sheets."                  "I'll be fine."                  I forced a smile and added "It's all in the lighting."                                                  I could taste the air and it was making me sick.                  "Okay."                  Wrong.                  I wanted to scream that the pain turns my lips blue and keeps me from blinking.                  It knows which vein to hit to make my wrists hurt.                                                        "W

The boys' and girls' bare feet were sinking in the green grass and sunlight backlit their shapes against the sky. She twirled towards him, still wearing the delicate white dress she had worn on stage minutes ago.                         "You missed it. I was beautiful."            "What are you talking about? You are beautiful." Lights danced in her eyes and she laughed softly.                      "Bet you can't catch me." He grabbed her hand and said "I've already got you."                "Not for long" she teased.                                 He pulled her closer and whispered                                                    

Scrapping for space space inbetween the thing we call we call distance, our home. Where we find comfort in almost anything. Just to keep our minds racing, dream of things we only fantasize of.             And its 4PM somewhere greater than we could think up.             December sells intentions to us high hoping thinkers.                                                  Magically the stone cold unthaws,                                                  making soft spots on your lungs.       Taking it all in       Taking me in With skyline seating. So shoot too high, dont dare aim low Beauty is waking up with sunrise smiles on y

It's energy and apathy and this game is just too long, I'm rolling sixes waiting for it to finally be your turn and well, we're all waiting to get in a line that only clouds our mind but maybe makes this all just a little more bearable, A little less painful, A little sweeter. So we're found sleeping on piano keys and outside of liquor stores in parking lots of empty homes and broken windows, like shattered eyes that work themselves out, convincing you that they're just fine. All we need is time, but its so much slower than any of us expected, until we realize it's all demented; Seconds are as relative as bombs are sensitive. We want a

round one: hopes are high "i cant wait to see you!"      "just one more week baby. ..one more."   thats just a lifetime...            "you make it seem like nothing." round two: the let-down "finally.. tomorrow!! its here, you're coming!"     "no. im sorry. not this week"                 not again..    im falling apart and im glad hes not here to see it. round three: sudden death   "everything is going downhill as of now."        "i know sweetheart. it will get better. dont worry ill be there soon."        ....soon?  ..thats it?      [wishing on stars doesnt help me get you here.]   "i've been wishing on stars for nothing?"

"rest your head on my chest as i take you for granted"       cross those fingers and wish for a good night sleep.             we'll do a tap dance across your sheets.                    and hope for no interuptions.          just wait for the dial tone. then you can start to scream. "keep your eyes closed tight babe. and never look back."    if i could just stop pretending.  i could be doing something worth my stay.            make me wish to never have to leave.               i love the way the words form on your lips                  how they roll off your tongue with ease. "fast forward to the days that you're here.. with